It feels like the world is tumbling. The memories haunts me, and the breakdown is near. I can’t get the pictures out of my head. I was sitting eating dinner with my family and it pops up a clear visual. Suddenly and out of nowhere. It’s hard to breathe. And it feels like my heart is literally breaking. Breathing gets harder. And people don’t get why you cut. I let myself feel, and got caught up in emotion. And every second I feel more, and every second I’m more paranoid that someone will lie to me, or let me down, or make me hurt again. I had put up this armor, and where has it gone. It’s my fault for letting someone in.